Wednesday, June 23, 2004


So here I am! A new voice in the blogosphere.

Well, who am I? Why am I here?

Basically, I'm a twenty-something young woman navigating through her early twenties, trying to figure out what to do with her life. But that's only partially true, I guess. I have some idea of where I'm going. And even though you could describe me in some very generic terms, I also have a lot of unique qualities that make me not quite so cookie cutter.

At the moment, I'm feeling quite blessed in life. Pretty full. But part of me feels just a tiny bit uncomfortable in my own skin. And that's probably not the right word. I just get so anxious for the future, so excited to see what's around the bend that I feel like a child bouncing up and down in giddy anticipation. I have so many hopes, so many things I want to see happen around me and because of me. So many things I want to DO. So it doesn't make much sense that I want to rush anything. I should enjoy the moment, relish in it, roll around in it, soak the experience deep into my pours, and emerge with its fingerprints all over me.

but, this is all characteristic of me. rushing things, looking ahead, tripping over the present. there are a few things that keep me in the moment right now though. running is one of them. there's a unique feeling when you just let your mind relax to the point that all it can hold is the present. just concentrate on the next step, the next breath, the next step. the repetitiveness of the movement coupled with the changing scenery soothes me. i know i'll be out there for long enough that i can't be bothered with trying to multitask the time.

So this is me and this is the beginning. I've been inspired recently by so many other amazing voices that I'm intimidated. But that's the great thing about this whole blogging thing...even though it feels like there isn't possibly space for my voice, too...there IS!