The ups and downs

Well, we had spring break the first week in March. Since then, I haven't really been all that productive with school work. But I haven't been as unhappy as I usually am...so I guess it's a fair trade-off. At least at the moment. But soon I really do need to buckle down.

You know what's so strange? The weekends are harder for me than the week. Instead of waking up on Saturday morning being excited about the weekend, I get a case of the "Oh no's" (as my mom calls them). "Oh no! It's the weekend. I have my whole day ahead of me. That means I *should* go grocery shopping and I *should* get ahead on that paper and I *should* call those people I've been avoiding all week..."

The list goes on. Do you feel like this ever? During the week, I know what I'm supposed to be doing -- working!! But on the weekends, I have options...and the options kill me! Part of me wants to relax during the weekend and sleep in. But the other part of me thinks I shouldn't be lazy and should just get up and get going and make the most of it.

It's during this back and forth that I waste a lot of time. Wavering, instead of just jumping into something.

Anyway, I think I've pretty much resolved that I'm doing nothing productive tonight (at least regarding schoolwork). Maybe I should just get to bed and try to wake up at 5 AM or something. I am more of a morning person anyway.